Read me

cosmic

—i was never the soul searching kind 
i didn’t look for any deeper meanings 
or even any meaning in anything 
for me life was just that living 
a survival a thing 
i didn’t look for any purpose 
but after you 
damn 
after you it all became different 
cosmic 
grand 
important 
meaningful 
after you i started looking for meanings 
in the smallest of things 
after you i started soul searching 
a girl who didn’t even believe in souls 
after you i started putting 
the alphabet in ways i couldn’t comprehend 
after you i became meaningful 
so please let me be like this 
please don’t go away 
and make me meaningless again 
i’ve gotten addicted to being cosmic 
that i won’t be okay with just 
being any longer
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